I don't know what's happened. I felt stronger. I felt positive.
Now I feel alone, want to be alone. Once again the world has lost its colour. I haven't exercised since Saturday. I simply can't find the motivation to. I've not really left the house too much. I haven't had much to leave it for, but that's suited me just fine.
I feel myself in a self-destructive cycle. I'm losing the energy to keep doing this. Back to the doctors tomorrow maybe.
Watching bits of life on a badly tuned tv. Moments of clarity make the haze and black harder to take.
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